Life

          When I was a teenager, I remember thinking to myself many times, " When I grow up, I'm going to do anything I want and do everything perfect." Then reality finally hit me a few years later. It's always easy to point out the errors, the fuckups, the 'thats so wrong' moments and the 'I could do better' moments in life but the reality is, could any of us do any better if we lived that persons life and had their experience and knowledge!
          Life feels like a casino, you play and play and play and play, you could get lucky and win a million, or you could die before ever having won anything meaningful. Thats how life feels to me, how life plays out to me. You could decide to play poker, slot machines, roulette or 21. Each game has it's pros and cons just like each decision we all make has its pros and cons.
          The reality is that life is too complicated to be able to look at any one situation or decision and say that it was the best decision. Too many things to factor in and in some cases, key pieces of the decision making process are not available until after the decisions are made. 
          Like I said when I started this blog, I am not sure where it will go and this is just me letting my thoughts play out as I feel fit. These are just my thoughts and my feelings put to digital permanency. I am all grown up now and I do anything that I want to, nothing is perfect but I try my best to get it perfect every day that I am gifted with life in this universe.